I thought that for today’s blog post I would do something a little different. I am going to have a heart to heart about my school years and what I thought of them. Even though that now I am a nearly 27 year old woman and it feels like I left school almost an eternity ago. I still had a shitty time whilst I was there and I can remember the feeling that the days were just dragging on. It felt like I would never escape that place. I was told to stay positive as I was growing up. One day my time at school would be a distant memory. I had a hard time and I think it is ok for me to acknowledge that.
During my school years, I did have an amazing group of friends. We seemed to gel at a really young age. I stuck with them same people all the way through my education. I was never bullied as such. Especially not in the way of name calling or anything physical. What I went through was certainly not fair. Because I was fast tracked through school because of my intellect. People my own age hated me for been a ‘geek’. Not to mention the older kids hated the fact that there was a little ‘kid’ in their class that was clever than them.. It was only made worse when I passed my GCSEs at age 13. Then had to go to class with the college kids. My intellect really is a gift. But it made me kiss goodbye to many forms of normal schooling interactions.
As much as I do not like to dwell on the past because I really do not believe that it can do you any good moving forward. I do think that it is important to acknowledge where you have been and what you have overcome. I by no means had the worse time in school. For example, I know that in comparison to what some kids go through with regards to bullying is just absolutely horrendous. I had it pretty mild. That does not mean that it was a bad time for me. This was the time that my anxiety kicked off. I would dread getting on the school bus to travel into school every day because I knew the kind of looks that I would be getting. Not to mention the whispers that I would be the cause for.
I know that there are people out there that will be going through something similar. I think that you have to be a very lucky individual to fly through your schooling years. It may be that you struggle in school. You may be trying to get better marks. It may be that you are not as social as other people. You could be socially uncomfortable around people . Your time in school will come to an end one day and even if it feels like it is a million miles away while you are living through it, it will come to an end and you can kiss goodbye to that part of your life.
To make us better people, we have to go through a struggle. I now know that my intellect is nothing but a positive. It took me many years to finally come to that realisation. After trying to play it down for me many years in order to fit in with the crowd. Those things that make you different are the things that people will appreciate you for as you get older and you will find the crowd that you fit in with and a group of friends that allow you to flourish. Just think of everything as a lesson and make sure that if you ever need to speak to somebody there are people out there that are able to help you through this.
School can suck. My school years were not great. Please do be sure to make the most out of it. Get your head down work hard and then move past it.